24 August 2021 – I saw this quote again today, and it spoke to me on many levels. I have made many changes in my life and taken many risks because I knew I was done just existing. I was ready to be me and ready to feel again, even if it was difficult. Even if it may lead to loss or heartbreak. I have recentered my life around me and what makes me happy. I am doing many things that I have always wanted to do and visiting places I have always wanted to see. I have asked myself difficult questions and forced myself to answer them even if the answer is I have no idea. Most importantly, I have decided not to miss out on anything.

I have had a great few months, and I have enjoyed so many fantastic adventures. I have done many new and daring things that were difficult. The biggest thing I have done is connect with myself. I have a new, clear understanding of who I am and a much greater understanding of what makes me happy. I don’t even mind being in my own head anymore because I can see the difference between what is real and what I have perceived as real. I am ready to engage with the real get rid of the junk. It will still be a difficult process, but I see the amazing shining through already. I’m glad I was smart enough not to miss out. I’m lucky that there have been special people making sure I take time for myself.

When I saw this quote, it also made me think of something and someone else. I am lucky enough to have a friend who makes me smile just by existing. Supporting me in my adventures and validating my emotions even when they are crazy. Making me laugh at myself while learning to like myself. It’s hard even to explain what a wonderful blessing a great friend can be. Because he knows that real growth comes from self-awareness and honesty, he has encouraged me to embrace who I am.

I am terrible with words – I can write facts all day, but putting emotions into words is not my forte. I tend to turn to quotes and cliches to say what I need to say. My friend makes me want to be a better person. To be more patient, more kind, more understanding and more generous. I wish I could find a way to tell him how much I care about him and, in turn, all of the things he cares about, but it isn’t easy. This is what the quote made me think about.

The most important lesson I have learned and the most important advice I can share is, life is short. I know things can be amazing if only they weren’t so difficult. Since the first conversation we ever had, I knew how special this friendship would be. It has changed my life and encouraged me to be better. I look forward to what can come next if we both remember that amazing is worth the scary and difficult. We don’t want to miss out on it. I wish I were better with words.