Tequila Talkin’

18 August 2021 – I enjoy tequila. I have since college. In college, everyone else was drinking The Beast (Milwaukee’s Best) but I hated beer. Fortunately, I was always lucky enough to find people who had tequila. It is the only alcohol that has always been a slow burn for me. I enjoy the taste and it makes me feel relaxed without the drunkenness. Add limes and salt and a little bit of soda, and you have a great drink. Tequila may not make me drunk but it definitely enlarges my heart and loosens my lips.

Tequila Talkin'

After just a few sips, all of my inner feelings come out. No matter what I am feeling before I have tequila, I am guaranteed to be gushing my emotions after. I am very honest and extremely nice. I want everyone to know how I feel about them but I can never describe it. Even if I am around people who I don’t particularly like, I will find something about them that I like and tell them. I want everyone to feel loved and special. Most importantly, I want the special people to know just how they are special to me. I love bigger and stronger and fiercer when I drink tequila. I am free when it’s tequila talkin’.

It was just the tequila talkin'
. . .
I get a little sentimental
When I've had one or two
And that tear in my eye
Was the salt and the lime
. . .
It was just the tequila talkin'

~ "Tequila Talkin'" by Lonestar

One of the discoveries I have made in just the last couple of weeks is that I can gush and love and be honest and free with my emotions even if I don’t have tequila to help. I have learned the you don’t need the perfect words, you only need the honest words. I don’t need to worry so much about having the right words, I have learned that I should just say what I feel and what I want to say because that is more important than flowery words that say nothing.

This discovery was great since I cant’ drink tequila any more. The doctor told me I had to give up some of my favorite things: soda, caffeine and tequila (all alcohol). Not completely and not forever but I need to save my tequila for special occasions. Ridiculousness. Fortunately I am more in touch with who I am, what I feel and what I want. I am also not afraid to have feelings, good or bad, and I am not afraid to share them. No more tequila talkin’.